Calling

   Have you ever had a vision? Not a dream or a day dream but a vision? After it was over you just KNEW that it was what you were suppose to do. It was your calling from Christ? I have had several but all centered around one thing. Just one thing truly make me happy and has even before I got my calling.
  A little background about me. I grew up not in a worthy home. I remember many night my mother not eating because she wanted to make sure we had food and she went without. She didnt know that I noticed. I saw the brokenness in her because of this. I remember that feeling I had a child and I swore to myself when I grew up that I would do what I could so another mother wouldnt have to feel that. As a teen I slipped away fom that. I pushed that back in my mind and I wanted to be something great. I wanted to do what I wanted to do with my life. But then because of one reason or another I havent become something great in the definition of what the world considers successful. But I am a mother and I still remember that little girls feeling of knowing her mother went hungry.
   So about a year and a half ago I was out mowing the grass and as clear as day I had this vision wash over me. It felt so tangible. I could see the colors. I could feel everything. I felt like I was standing in front of this sign. It was this beautiful sign and I saw the name and I knew. I had several others through out this past year. It has gotten stronger and more clear. Then on Thanksgiving I was able to help out and bless many homeless people. The joy I felt and the rush I got from being able to prove what I did was so rewarding. It gave me the conformation I needed.
  I am ready to walk in my calling. I am ready to do this. I have this burning and desire to feed the needy. To be able to provide dry goods, canned foods, meals and eventually meats for the needy and homeless. I have had so many people try to discourage me from my "dream". I have had many say there are too many people in need to do this. You will not be able to keep up. You will not be able to do this. Well to them I say "I WILL DO THIS!!!!!! MY GOD WILL PROVIDE THE MEANS TO DO THIS!!!!" The diffenerce is I have faith that He can and do ALL things according to HIS riches and glory. In HIM all things are possible. Jesus said ask these thing in MY name I will give you the desires of your heart. Well my heart is broken seeing and hearing all the things about people straving to death. People going without what we all take for granted, which is knowing we do have a next meal coming. Have you ever wondered when you will eat again? Have you ever went to bed hungry and knowing you will not have anything in the morning to stop the pains. Have you ever told your child who is crying for food, "im sorry I cant feed you?" Have you ever?!!!! Try it one day. Go one day without food and then after tell me I am crazy for this. Tell me it is a ridiculous dream to have. Tell me that you dont pray to God begging for food. Tell me your heart doesnt break when you watch your child die because he or she couldnt be feed. Tell me then how crazy I am for having this desire.
  I was given a gift from God to be able to cook. It is a gift that I HAVE TO share!!! I dont want to do anything else. I have no desire to do anything else. My hearts desire is to feed people. I have thought many years of what I want to do when I grew up and I cant see myself anywhere else. To be able to do this would give some many people hope. Hope is such a powerful thing to have. Because without hope you have nothing. You have no will or drive for anything. It is such a scary feeling to be hopeless. That is why I know I am to call my food pantry/ soup kitchen Harvesting Hope. Because that is exactly what we will be doing. We will be giving them the harvest and giving the hope that they so desperately need.  
  So I ask you......... are you walking in your calling? Do you know what God has called you do? Are you afraid to do what He has called you to do? Have you not done it because it doesnt make sense to you? Well I can tell you fear is not from god. And things are done in His time. I know I havent started because it didnt make sence to me and I let others words start to detour me. But I woke up today ready! I am very excited! I have no idea where to start or how to start but you know what?! God will show me the how and He will lead the way and I will follow. Are you ready to follow him? I know this will work and this will be a wonderful journey for me. Do you want to know how I know? I know because I have faith!!!!!